AS Lisa Rees sat in a starkly quiet delivery room on Boxing Day, the sound of crying babies surrounded her.
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There was no sense of urgency in her room, no doctors rushing in and out, no tears of joy, or fear of motherhood.
Just silence, as Lisa held her Emma Rose - her angel baby.
It was the second time the promise of life had been stripped from her.
The second time her baby had been stillborn.
She is now speaking out so other mothers don't have to go through the journey alone. Because, as she says, her story is all too common.
More than 2000 babies are born still each year in Australia - six women a day sitting in quiet delivery rooms.
The number has remained steady for the past two decades.
And for Lisa, it is 2000 angel babies too many.
After losing their first baby to stillbirth in 2005, it took Lisa and her husband Simon three years to gather the courage to try again.
In 2008, Lisa fell pregnant and they began the stressful and anxious task of being monitored every week.
"Each week I had an internal ultrasound to check if my cervix was shortening again," Lisa said.
"And each week I was surprised by the good news that all looked good.
''Then, at my 20-week scan, my fears were realised. There was no heartbeat. Our baby had died.
"That was two days before Christmas and on Boxing Day 2008, I was induced into labour, and gave birth to our second angel baby girl, Emma Rose."
Lisa said it was heartbreaking to be told it was okay so often, until "suddenly it wasn't".
"It was especially hard, the second time around. It hit us really hard," she said. "It was over the Christmas break, and I decided not to go back to work. So I took the maternity leave and tried to recover from the shock and devastation.
"Of course, you never fully recover, but time has helped. We got a dog, so I think having him really helped Simon through it."
Now Lisa is no longer bitter when pregnant friends tell her about sleepless nights, heartburn and crazy cravings.
Her three-year-old son, Jake, helps her forget the devastation and remember the beauty of new life.
"After all the heartache, we decided to try again," she said. "This time, the hospital not only monitored me every week, but the baby too.
"Each week I braced myself for devastating news and each week I was surprised that everything was fine.
"At 38 weeks I was induced into labour and our beautiful, healthy, miracle baby boy arrived – Jake Owen. He is now three-and-a-half and perfect."
While the past still haunts her, Lisa said seeking help was the only way to get through.
She said her journey was never meant to be taken alone and her only regret is that she didn't seek refuge in others.
"Cry and talk," she said.
"Make sure you talk to your partner about how you're feeling. They're going through it too.
"So much focus is on the mother’s loss (as it should be), but the father has experienced a great loss too."
Lisa now devotes her time to raising money and awareness for the Stillbirth Foundation Australia.
"These deaths are a tragedy. It’s disturbing that, in an age of enormous technical and medical advances, the number of stillborn babies is not declining, nor is the cause well understood," she said.
"People don't talk about it, and they should."