Rather, she wants to help someone else.

But in doing so, her story needs to be told.

It’s the story of a young woman who for 10 years has never spoken of losing her only two siblings to suicide – within a month of each other.

The story of a young woman whose life has been so affected by trauma that she cannot cry.

A young woman who no longer believes in promises.

A brave young woman who knows painfully well just what happens to those left behind when a person takes their own life.

And she wants others to think of her story when they consider suicide.

“Just don’t do it – think about the people you’re leaving behind,” she said.

“I want people to think of their family first – and how they might react and deal with it.”

Her plea comes almost 10 years after her sister, Angela, then 16, and brother, Stuart, 20, took their own lives four weeks apart.

Stacey was 18, but a young 18.

Hearing difficulties during childhood meant she was reliant on her siblings, so she was close to her brother.

Her relationship with Angela was also close, though they argued like sisters.

“But if I ever had any problems, she would always stick up for me, she was always there when I needed her,” Stacey said. Then one day, she wasn’t. And soon after, nor was Stuart.

And it has been that way for a decade.

No brother or sister to phone, talk to, share Christmas or birthdays. No nieces or nephews.

And in many ways, Stacey also lost her life.

The trauma has taken most of her childhood memories.

For the first month, she slept on the floor of her parents’ bedroom and required a light on at night for three years. For a while she lost her parents, too.

Their grief isolated her, despite it never being deliberate.

Stacey stopped talking to them, because she didn’t want to add to their pain.

She stopped seeing friends because they didn’t understand.

Stopped smiling. Stopped living. Stopped trusting.

“The night Stuart died, he promised me he wouldn’t do anything,” Stacey said.

“Now I don’t believe in promises.’’

In fact, for much of the past decade Stacey hasn’t believed in much.

She avoids events in case other people want to talk about her siblings’ deaths, or they don’t know her past and ask about her family.

“I just don’t like being around people,” she said.

“It’s hard to trust and be friends with people,” she said.

“Your past always comes up – people ask, do you have brothers and sisters?

“It’s really hard to talk about it.”

Mostly, Stacey’s life has been about survival. She started taking overseas trips in 2007 and is now learning to set goals to give herself something to look forward to.

Her dog, Monty, has been her saviour in many dark moments.

She now has a new partner and is the happiest she has been in 10 years, but “it’s still a struggle to go to work each day’’.

“Putting a smile on your face can be hard some days – people have no idea how hard it can be just to get out of bed,” she said.

“In time, you learn to live with it because you don’t really have a choice – you have to do everyday things that make you happy.

“But it’s been hell – some days are just so hard.”

Stacey’s mother Alannah has watched her only surviving daughter battle with the scars of her siblings’ deaths.

“People forget, or get used to it, or don’t realise you never get over it,’’ she said.

“At Stuart and Angela’s funerals, we were individuals – we were each suffering our own different way, but people never asked how Stace was.

“Stacey said at the time ‘they always used to leave me out, and now they’ve gone and left me’.’’

But Stacey is quick to point out that she forgives her brother and sister.

“I forgive them 110 per cent,” she said.

“No one has any idea what the person who is thinking of suicide is going through.

“The biggest thing for people to understand is what’s going on in their mind – they don’t just go and do it.

“But they need to know people do care, and they want to help.

“And that’s why I’m doing this. “It’s not about me – I just want to help someone else.

“And I want them to think about their family and what it does.

“I’ve had a tough life, but I would never think of doing it.

“After seeing the effects of what they did, I would never do that.’’